The past few weeks have been a seminar on awareness, being conscious of what is going on around me as well as within me. I have been noticing so many things. So many things. I thought I should start making a list of all the noticing but as is usually my wont, I figured I would remember. And, of course, now that I sit down to write about what I have noticed, I’m having difficulty remembering all of the things.
When clients come in (or as it is now, log on) to see me, I work with them to become conscious of their thought patterns, the unconscious messages they are sending themselves, the subconscious beliefs they hold about life and circumstance and beliefs and other people. When we become conscious, or aware, we can begin to make choices (also a great word that begins with C), and when we make conscious choices, we take back our power. We discover our agency, either for the first time or again.
To use a slightly silly example, I have noticed that there are a lot of dandelions in the grass just outside my front door. Usually I mow once a week and pay no attention, but now, as I sit on the front steps and comb the cat to while away the hours, I am aware of the sheer number of dandelions. More dandelions than grass in many spots. In this moment I realize that I have a choice about how I feel about the unwanted yellow and green plant pests. I can be annoyed by them, or I can be grateful that today is sunny and getting warm-ish and I have time to spend in the yard, eradicating them.
Recognizing the choices gives me a sense of power. I can choose what to do and how I want to feel. I can feel in control and powerful regardless of my choice, just knowing that I have options. Without choice, I could become a victim to the dandelions, feeling sorry for myself that I don’t have a beautiful lush lawn, for example.
Instead, I make a conscious decision to spend a few hours weeding, moving, bending, kneeling, focusing.
My lawn looks like it has a terrible pox, but I am invigorated.
What have you been noticing?
p.s. Other things I have noticed/become conscious of:
- my cat Mittens has a nemesis neighbor cat that visits/harasses him daily
- the deer parade through my yard daily as well and boy are there a lot this spring
- my freezer doesn’t seem to be working
- I don’t mind the noise in the neighborhood
- there’s a tiny hold drilled above my front door that seems to be bug related
- I have and can wield a caulk gun
- volunteer pansies in my flower pots
- I can be content staying home
- I am saving a ton of money by not eating out nearly every night
- I don’t mind cooking